Damn you insomnia.
Damn you to heck.

So yea, I'm only dating two ladies at the moment now.
I dropped one at the beginning of the week.
Too aggressive sexually for me.
At least for a relationship that was barely reaching the two month point.

I guess now would be a good time to remind everyone where I stand.
Cuz I'm not sure what I'm looking for, but I am finding things I'd like to avoid.

In my lifetime, I've had two serious relationships.
Both of them lasting roughly three and a half years in length.
Both of them seemingly on the path to marriage.
Both ending on bad notes.
The first bad enough to start my relationship with alcohol.
The second bad enough to spend about 3k in one night at a casino.
The fun thing about heartbreak, it really leaves you emotionally/mentally unstable.
Stories for another time I guess.

It's because of these past two relationships I'm now on a dating multiple ladies at the same time policy.
I want to take things pretty slowly.
Use the dating process to filter out any red flags.
REALLY make sure I'm not wasting more time.
That's understandable right?

It's not like I'm man-whoring it up either.
Contrary to popular belief, I'm not the "hit it an' quit it" type of guy.
Because a part of me is always looking long-term.
It's not rushing it, but it is aware of it.
As far as physical intimacy goes, nothing past oral.
Cuz playing "Just the tip" would just get out of hand for me.

I reserve that "fun" aspect for a serious relationship.
Cuz if either one of us messes up, it's a lifetime commitment.
I'm a fan of healthy, stable environments to grow up in.

Which brings me back to the lady I dropped earlier this week.
Possible nympho.
She just wanted to go all the way often.
For those that are curious, flashback to my blind date story that took place at Starbucks.

Mmmhmm.

Had to go an' make things hard on me all the time.
The breakup not quite as smooth as I'd like either.
I forget the exact conversations, but there was boobage involved.
Why is that so bad?
It wasn't, she wanted me to say goodbye to 'em.
I just left my cellphone at her home an' had to head back later that day to pick it up.

"You came back for more?"
"Not really. I left my Helio here... I'm hoping you didn't break it."
Again, the conversation's kinda fuzzy now.
Probably could've made for a solid cellphone advertisement though.

So there you have it.
Nice lil' recap on my relationship views at the moment.
Might be down to 0 by the end of the week, might be up to 5.
Who knows?
It is getting closer to cuddling season.

Yes, I'm still open to blind dates.

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